I was listening to my Lauryn Hill CD, and she made a statement that has sparked a flame in me.  So I decided to share it with you.

"Fantasy is what people want and reality is what they need.  " 

Short and sweet, but it says everything that needs to be said. What do you think?

"Fantasy is what people want and reality is what they need.  " 

Keeping that in mind, I would like to take this opportunity to say rest in peace Mr. Bernie Mac.  He was a comedian who always based his comedy on real life issues.  In one of his sets, he told the audience to not be mad at what he was saying because he was only saying out loud what they were thinking and scared to say.

He was right.  He will be missed.

It's been a while and life has continued to move forward for me.  Some of it has been good and some of it has been bad. Some of it has just been...(when you figure it out let me know).  How is it possible that a man can help create a child as wonderful as my son and not do everything possible to make sure that child has what he needs?

I continue to struggle as a single mother; bills keep coming, money keeps shrinking, and food costs more the healthier your try to eat.  I can't believe how much harder it is to live each year that goes by.  I keep hearing that to lose wait I have to eat more healthy foods; then I go to the grocery store and the choices I have for the money I have to make last is ridiculous.  How do I eat healthy when organic foods cost so much more than the other choices and fresh vegetables cost more than canned frozen and processed vegetables.  Chicken cost more than the pork that raises my blood pressure, beef is outrageous, and frankly I am tired of wrestling with what is good and what's not. 

I thank God for friends like Auwal, Anika, Tonya, and my son AaRon who make each day bearable.

Bills, bills, bills, and more bills. Let's not even get into this presidential campaign.  Change is good...sometimes; and sometimes too much change without guidance can do more harm than good.  I am looking forward to seeing what comes of this election in November and what happens afterward.  Bush has really stuck into a situation where any money our economy creates is shipped to another country.  When will we start to heal some of the pain and suffering in our own country and then branch to share what has worked for us.  We still have homelessness, extreme destructive addictions, and people living on drugs to tell them that they are happy and that crying is wrong.  What has happened.  Everyone is in such a hurry to get to the next thing they don't take time to enjoy what they have or the journey that brings them closer to their goals.   In the mean time, we are losing our minds, spirituality, and dreams for a better future.

There's a question for you all,  what happens when we finally turn into a country that is afraid to dream for the future.  What then?

Well, it's me again. One more year and a lot has happened to, for, and with me.  Another year on this Earth and I'm still alive.  (My mom thought I would have departed this uncompromising World well before my thirtieth birthday and here I am at thirty and three).

Another year older, another year more seasoned in the ways of life.  What do I have to show for those years?  Love, friendship, faith, a wonderful son (who constantly surprises me with how gracefully he meanuevors through rough times) and a sense of humor that has saved me from many pit falls thoughout my life.

Thank you all for any and all comments made to my blog entries, and thank you for encouraging me to be a part of this community. Thank you to those special ones who have taken a personal interest in my successes and also to those who have allowed me to cry on virtual shoulders that have been so strong that my life without them would have been very lonely indeed.

Each year contains something new and this next year will be no different.  So I take this opportunity to ask you all to bare with me and continue to be yourselves as I will continue to be me.  I can only be Me, it's all I know and it's what I feel the best about. 

On this Birthday I take a little time out of my insomnia haze to ask that God keep each and every one of you safe and lead you to what will make you happy. Then I ask that when you get to that place of happiness, please recognize it and enjoy.  I would hate to think I wasted a wish (wink). 

God thank you for leading me this far, even though I have definitely tried to take another path, thank you for your patience with me and keeping me close as I struggled.  You kept me in your arms when I was at my worst and you held me high to celebrate my best. You gave me Love when others made me feel small and weak. You showed me that the Me inside would always be the best me and should never hide. 

Here I am the best Me, for all to see whether they embrace me or not. My arms remain open to welcome those who need it, want it, have searched and couldn't find it. For those who think they don't deserve Love, I say you do. Except it and get on with the journey waiting for you. 

Happy May 7th to all.....................Happy Anniversary God  may we continue on until the finish line. (smile)

Beauty is the "flaw" that most try to hide.  Have you heard a person say that they are too nice, or too kind?  Maybe you've heard this, "my lips are too big", or "my face is too round".  I've even heard this one (and it always makes me want to cry) "My skin is too dark, if I were lighter I would be prettier".  

Beauty is in everything that God placed on this Earth; from the trees to the color of every eye.  How can we look at the differences in each other and not see the beauty that is there for all to see.  It amazes me  how much beauty is taken for granted and changed.

I see beauty in the differences that make each of us unique.

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I am not sure if it's a Who or a What, but God has definitely got an eye on me.  He sends me blessings right when I need them.  There are times when I may do something and I am not quite sure why it is important to do the thing I am doing. I always follow my heart; and it seems to lead me right where I need to be. 

God directs my heart and my heart directs me. Not a bad little set up.  Blueprints were made far ahead of time; now I just have to follow the plans.

The little lady beside me in this picture looks out for me too (smile). She gave me Love unconditionally.  Hows that for watching over, everyone needs unconditional Love. 

Sometimes I have trouble sleeping; because I am worried or upset.  This day I find myself sleepless but content.  Just when I thought my life was another drop in the sea, God saw fit to share what Love is supposed to be with me.

I have begun a journey of hope, happiness, fulfillment, and peace.  More important this journey is of Love.  One day I closed my eyes, and when I opened them again my world had changed from this place of selfishness, anger, frustration, and destruction; to a place of possibilities, encouragement, passion, fire, and spiritual awakening. 

I have found what God has meant for me.  I finally got out of my own way and let His blessing pour onto me like a cool rain on the hottest day of the year.  How is it that when we are so close to being beyond the person God meant for us, He seems to put exactly what we need to bring us back to the land of the living in our paths? Healthier now in soul, I have begun to work my outside so that it matches the me inside. All these things I do with the help of a man in Nigeria. (Gene, what an Angel of a man you are.)

He shares with me the Love God planned for me from the beginning of time.  How could I ever have doubted that I deserved to be this Loved, cared for, appreciated, and adored. 

Thank you God for the Angels you send me, and Thank you for blessings they bring to my life.

This is to testify that God is always moving in my life.

Where ever my soul and mind go it's because my heart started the journey. 
Each day that goes by I am bombarded by decisions and questions of those decisions. 
My heart represents my passion and what drives me towards my goal. 
So I guess the answer to this question is: I follow my heart in every direction whenever possible.
Adventurous I know, but the learning experiences are valuable and everlasting.

May God hold my heart as I travel this road to discovery.

Start each new day with a commitment to do what's right – regardless of what may come your way.

This is my theme, I try to follow it with everything that I do.  Sometimes it's harder than it looks and usually that's when I look to my friends, family, Love for support.  If we all started our day and managed to get through most it with this theme, our worlds would run much smoother.   Of course we won't always do what is right but at least you tried.  Blessings everyone.

Sometimes one foot in front of the other, works really well. Evaluate the problem and figure out what is the best way to get others to join you in fixing this problem.  There really is power in numbers. 

The change I want to see in this world is how we see each other.  Too often we see one another with the eyes of people who are afraid of what is different.  We seem to use those differences to hold people at bay. Leaving us in a place of loneliness and dysfunction.  We have been blessed with characteristics that make us unique, so why use them to create more problems when they can be used to make positive changes?

Be the change take the first step and others will follow.

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